Abba Agathon
IVᵉ-Vᵉ siècle
Prayer understood as a fight, to the last breath.
Who was Abba Agathon?
A monk of Scetis, known for carrying a pebble in his mouth for three years until he had learned to keep silent. Going down to the town to sell his baskets, he took in a leper abandoned in the square and kept him beside him for the whole market. His brothers said he had never gone to sleep holding a grievance against anyone. Questioned on his deathbed, he refused to declare himself at peace.
In their own words
There is no harder work than praying to God. Every time a man wants to pray, his enemies try to stop him. Prayer is a fight to the last breath.
I have never gone to sleep holding a grievance against anyone, and, as far as it depended on me, I have let no one go to sleep holding a grievance against me.
I have done all I could to keep the commandments; but I am a man, and I do not know whether my work has pleased God, for God's judgement is not the judgement of men.